Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Dallas you bastard

It is all my fathers fault how i am. therapy we had a "break through"!! exciting tres i know.

i guess cause i have always felt like it was my fault i haven't had a relationship with my father.. because i felt like i am the one who said "no lets stop this madness" at eight. That i have always felt like i ruined one of the most important relationships of my lifetime.

sooo..

thus, i continuously set myself in relationship where i know i will receive pain at the end because of the things i do.

its like control.

i want to be hurt because i feel like i deserve it for fucking me and my fathers relation ship up.

Goddayum.

and i always thought i'd be one of the lucky ones without daddy issues.


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