Bitch Please.

I need I need to be back in the state of mind I was in before.

I think i hate my therapist.I don't feel like she does any good. Shes too talky. She doesn't write things down. I feel like counselors should write things down. Or is writing things down something you learn in medical school.. so only psychiatrist do it.

Fuck i have to see psychiatrist.
wonder what will be said.
Wonder what will happen.
I just want to be better.
I hate living in this hell.
I hate smiling my way through it.Its so annoying.

Why can't i just be Vogue.

i need to work more hours. i need cash money. I have no idea for what.

Oh yah me and Britt and Amby are going to Madison. Girls weekend. That should be fabulous.

i wanna feel what i did.
High standards . All times.
I'm worth it.
I do not deserve it.
No one DESERVES anything. I hate when people think they do. Why do you DESERVE it your not perfect your not flawless. Your worth it. Grace should give it to you. But by no means does anyone deserve anything.